EDD December, 26, 2001
We waited until Mother's Day to spread our good news to our families. We had bought a card, from grandchild to grandmother to break the news to both of our mothers. Both soon-to-be grandmothers were so happy and so surprised.
Tim and I started getting ready almost right away. Our little angel's room was soon ready for his arrival. We were lucky to find a crib at 
To finish off the room, we had ordered a custom quilt and bumper set from a mennonite village in a near-by town. Everything was coming together just perfect and the room looked adorable. All that was left to buy was a rocking chair, and a set of bookshelves.
I just sat there and cried...
Everything was going well until mid-October. I had noticed a change in our angel's movements. I was concerned, but as a first time mom, I really did not know what to expect. I had spoken to an OB at my OBs group practice at my regular 2 week appointment about my concerns, and about the change I had been experiencing. He explained that as long as I was still feeling movements, everything was fine.
Two weeks later, on October 29th, I met again with my regular OB. She confirmed my worst fears. I could see it in her face, as she tried and tried to find his heartbeat. She sent me immediately to the hospital to get an ultrasound. While I lay in the hospital bed, I looked desparately at the ultrasound screen to see something - anything - but there was nothing. My baby angel had died.
Tim and I were now faced with making funeral arrangements instead of making the final arrangements before our angel was expected to arrive. Tim and I were now facing that our dreams and everything we had hoped for for baby Jacob would not come true.
After 7 hours of induced labour, baby Jacob Nicholas Marshall was born to heaven at 12:32am, October 30, 2001. He weighed a little over 2lbs, but was otherwise perfect - ten little fingers and ten little toes. I had the opportunity to hold him, on two separate occassions. God how it hurt to see him, knowing I would never get to see or hold him again.
And like a single drop of rain
That on still waters fall,
My life and love will ripples make
And touch the lives of all.
--Author Unknown
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